Thursday, 22 November 2007

Where does the panic come from?

At 1.20pm my bgs were 13.8. (248) I took 4 units extended over an hour and had about 50g of carbs.

At 2.10pm my bgs were 14.6. (263) I drove to work.

At 2.40pm - 13.2. (237) Brain kicks in, "you are dropping - start getting anxious!!!" So I did!

At 3.00pm - 12.2. (219) Brain says "YOU ARE DROPPING FAST, PANIC AND DRINK LUCOZADE!!!!!!!!!!! So I did!!!!!

At 3.20pm - 13.2. (237) Phew, going back up, think "Stupid woman, now you are full of Lucozade and you'll have to correct later!!!!!!!!!!!

What happened was my immediate panic response kicked in. I believed that my stomach wasn't absorbing the food (gastroparesis kicking in) and that I would drop right down and pass out at work and have to have an ambulance, etc etc, big hoo hah!!!!

The fact was that had not happened, my brain just convinced me that it had. I was already too high to start with and had a LONG way to go to end up hypo.

HOW CAN I STOP THIS HAPPENING?????????????? I am seeing my GP on Monday about some dizziness I've been having so I may ask if I can be referred to the psychologist for some help or I'm never going to get these bgs down.

Wednesday, 21 November 2007


Well I guess I left things hanging a few months ago. It turned out the news wasn't good and we had a huge shock when the tests revealed that my husband had a malignant tumour on his forearm. It was a soft tissue sarcoma and is quite rare. He had it diagnosed on 12th September and had it removed the next day. The surgeons were happy they had removed all of it but he is currently having radiotherapy as a "mopping up" exercise just in case.

As you can imagine we were both extremely shocked, having been told for several months that it was just a fatty lump. I had not had any contact with cancer before, except for my grandmother dying of breast cancer so I immediately thought the worst. However, my husband is the opposite and is a very positive person so he just told everyone we knew. The messages we got back were amazing, and all kinds of people came out of the woodwork admitting to either having cancer themselves or having close relatives with it. And ALL the stories were of survivors! This was such a great help to me, and his treatment has gone so well that I can almost forget about it. But not quite.

He will be closely monitored now but we are hoping that this has just been a temporary blip and that once the radiotherapy is finished we can get back to normal in the New Year.

As for my diabetes over this time.......don't ask!!!